frust! and cure?

I am going to turn 23 soon. Feeling kind of old~~~ duh...

Over with my final exam papers for this trimester. Currently having free time on my hands and is getting bored. What should I do for fun??? Hmm...

I have been thinking, regretting and trying to resolute on my views on life. What good deeds have I done for myself and others? What should I have done instead to avoid those bad stuffs from happening again? Hmm... I really am still growing mentally and emotionally. Aargghhh... the worst part is that I gained 10kg in 1 year! WTH!!! It's freaking 10KG!!! Haizz... I am so doomed! Something must have gone wrong at some point. How can I turn things around?

*Sigh~~~*

I know, I know. I should have more self-discipline and self-constraints. Haiz... Whatever. So many frustrations and so many regrets... I am so freaking emo right now~~~

Tired, wanna sleep. Night.

Here is something to spice up my emo emo situation. haha...



This one too.



I don't really understand what is the song about. However, they gave me a feeling of saying good bye to those bad memories and welcoming and hoping for new good things to happens. haha...

Aaahh... found it!

L'arc-En-Ciel - The Fourth Avenue Cafe

L'arc-En-Ciel - Dive To Blue

hahaha... I do know that "the sun will come out tomorrow". Feeling better now. Love Laruku always. (^.^)

The GazettE

hahaha... I am so excited. It has been a while since I last felt this way. I am talking about the kind of excitement I get whenever I found something damn good to obsessed about. wahahahahahaha..........

Introducing my new founds favourite JRock band, The GazettE.

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Other than the great rocking L'Arc~en~ciel and devilishly sexy beautiful Gackt, I am now falling head over heel for this rather new Visual Kei band. I won't go on blabbing about the facts and numbers. Here is the link if you want to learn more about The GazettE from Wikipedia. They don't seems to have their own website yet. Well, I guess it is just a matter of time.

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I first heard about GazettE from a friend in my Friendster account. My first impression was, "Aaahh... another Visual Kei band. Heavy makeup and ridiculous clothings. Wonder if they can actually sing? Maybe just another pretty faces and overrated gimmicks." In case you are wondering, I fancy Gackt and not Malice Mizer. So, I didn't give The GazzettE another thought.

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Months later, I was talking to my Japanese Language sensei about Japanese singers and bands. She seems to like Gackt too, which is a good thing. Then, she suggested that I must have like GazettE as well if I love L'Arc~en~ciel. Therefore, today I thought it would be good to give GazettE a try. And now, I have to eat my own words. huhuhuhuhu~~~ They definitely can sing and produce rocking music.

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Let me just quote this from Wikipedia :
"The Gazette's musical style varies greatly, but it is generally thought of to be a form of Rock Music, also commonly dwelling into the genres of Heavy Metal and Alternative Metal. Songs like "Silly God Disco" feature a funk rock styled sound, while "SWALLOWTAIL ON THE DEATH VALLEY" features a hard rock styled sound, while songs like "Maggots", "Discharge" and "Headache Man" dwell into heavier forms of Music, in particular, Alternative Metal. The release of the new album DIM showed The GazettE producing a more Experimental sound than in older Albums, while retaining their Alternative Metal styled sound, shown in songs such as "OGRE". The Gazette also uses a wide range of synthesised sounds during their songs, mainly female voices, shown in songs such as "SWALLOWTAIL ON THE DEATH VALLEY" and "Filth in the Beauty". The Gazette has also produced a number of lighter rock songs, such as "Calm Envy" and "Cassis"."

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Cassis is the first Gazette's song that I listened to and I am immediately melted by it. Ruki's voice just blew me away. It is pretty much unexpected. Cassis sounds so sad and yet very clear. How to better describe my thoughts and feelings toward this song? Erm... It felt like I can understand every words and emotions of the song thanks to Ruki's capability in expressing and singing it. I had some mixed but good feelings about it.





I am trying to listen to their other songs as well and are also fond of like these two.








Burial Applicant, Ganges Ni Akai Bara, Gentle Lie, Filth In The Beauty and Circle Of Swindler from their "Stacked Rubbish" album sound good too. Sometimes, I can't help relating some of their sound to Gackt's or Laruku's or Hyde's. Other than that, this band is pretty new to me.

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In my own humble opinion, L'Arc~en~ciel is an established successful great JRock band while The GazettE is an upcoming and rising talented new JRock band. I will keep my eye on The GazettE as well now. haha...

***update: I found their website.

春雨里洗过的太阳 ; Spring Rain Washed Over The Sun

back to 26th of December in year 2008, the XinTiao album by my favourite Lee Hom Wang was released. it has 10 songs and i like the 3rd track the most. so, here is it. the lyric of this song for you to share the rythms in my heart. haha... enjoy. all credits go to Lee Hom and the www.com

春雨里洗过的太阳
by: 王力宏



分開之後另一年的春天
記憶也像下雪一樣溶解
那些有你在身邊的影片
呼的一聲飛的老遠老遠

愛在夏天過完之後鎖在秋天
捱過冬天之後的我好了一些
嘿 雨後的天上 彩虹出現 襯出一片藍天

我在淋過一場大雨之後的晴朗
那是春雨裡洗過的太陽
每個冬季帶來失落 傷得多深
然後忽然看懂雲的形狀

If listen to the rhythm of the pouring rain
那是春雨裡洗過的太陽
每個冬季帶來失落 傷得多深
每個呼吸都是 新的芬芳

分開之後另一年的春天
記憶也像下雪一樣溶解
那些有你在身邊的影片
呼的一聲飛的老遠老遠

愛在夏天過完之後鎖在秋天
但捱過冬天之後的我好了一些
嘿 雨後的天上 彩虹出現 襯出一片藍天

我在淋過一場大雨之後的晴朗
那是春雨裡洗過的太陽
每個冬季帶來失落 傷得多深
然後忽然看懂雲的形狀

If listen to the rhythm of the pouring rain
那是春雨裡洗過的太陽
每個冬季帶來失落 傷得多深
每個呼吸都是 新的芬芳

流下的眼淚 留下了智慧
愛情會天亮也一定會黑
世界會等我 它會問我冬天過去了沒

我在淋過一場大雨之後的晴朗
那是春雨裡洗過的太陽
每個冬季帶來失落 傷得多深
然後忽然看懂雲的形狀

If listen to the rhythm of the pouring rain
那是春雨裡洗過的太陽
每個冬季帶來失落 傷得多深
每個呼吸都是 你的芬芳
春雨裡洗過的太陽


~~pinyin~~

Chun Yu Li Xi Guo De Tai Yang
by: Wang Lee Hom

Fen kai zhi hou ling yi nian de chun tian
Ji yi ye xiang xia xue yi yang rong jie
Na xie you ni zai shen bian de ying pian
Hu de yi sheng fei de lao yuan lao yuan

Ai zai xia tian guo
Wan zhi hou suo zai qiu tian
Ai guo dong tian zhi hou de
Wo hao le yi xie hei
Yu hou de tian shang
Cai hong chu xian
Chen chu yi pian lan tian

* wo zai lin guo yi chang
Da yu zhi hou de qing lang
Na shi chun yu li xi guo de tai yang
Mei ge dong ji dai lai shi luo
Shang de duo shen
Ran hou hu ran kan dong yun de xing zhuang

If listen to the rhythm of the pouring rain
Na shi chun yu li xi guo de tai yang
Mei ge dong ji dai lai shi luo
Shang de duo shen
Mei ge hu xi dou shi xin de fen fang

(Repeat All)

Liu xia de yan lei
Liu xia le zhi hui
Ai qing hui tian liang
Ye yi ding hui hei
Shi jie hui deng wo
Ta hui wen wo dong
Tian guo qu le mei

(Repeat *)

Chun yu li xi guo de tai yang

drink it down

this is laruku latest single which is also the official theme song for japanese devil may cry 4 game. released in january 2008. enjoy.




that is why i like l'arc~en~ciel, they are something and somebody. their works have a class of its own. they have clear visions and missions of what and how they want to become. not just a 'wannabe' group. go laruku.

野に咲く花のように

no ni saku hana no you ni

by: Gackt M. Sawasdee Camui

daremo inai GURAUNDO no namae kizanda sakura no shita
itsuka kimi to mou ichido
koko ni kuru koto wo yakusoku shiyou
CHAIMU no hibiku koutei no
katasumi ni saku hana no you ni
yasashiku waratte kureta kimi dake ni tsutaetai
tada "arigatou" to...
bokutachi wa itsu no hi ni ka
mata kono basho de deau sono hi made
no ni saita hana no you ni
kesshite makezu ni tsuyoku sakitai

kayoi nareta kono michi mo
kyoushitsu kara mieru keshiki mo

"itsumademo wasurenai yo"

to namida ukabeta, kimi no egao mo
itsumo minareta yuugure ga sakura namiki wo somete yuku
bokutachi wa sorezore no omoide wo
mune ni daite aruki hajimeru
itsuka mita yume no basho e tadori tsuku made
akiramenaide
mada na mo nai hana dakeredo
kesshite makezu ni tsuyoku sakitai

itsu no hi ka aruite kita michi wo
furikaeru toki ga kuru made
no ni saita hana no you ni
kesshite makezu ni tsuyoku sakitai
bokutachi wa itsu no hi ni ka
mata kono basho de deau sono hi made
no ni saita hana no you ni
kesshite makezu ni tsuyoku sakitai
kesshite makezu ni tsuyoku sakitai
sakitai...

translation:

like the flowers that bloom in the field

No one has engraved their name on the ground beneath the cherry tree
So let's make a promise to
come here together again someday and do that
Like the flowers that bloom in the corner of the schoolyard,
where the echoing of the school bell can be heard
I want to express to you, who gently smiled for me,
a simple "Thank you"
One of these days, we'll meet here again,
so until that day...
I want you to grow stronger and never-give-up,
like the flowers that bloom in the field

The road we got used to walking down,
and the scenery we saw from our classroom
With a smile upon your face and tears in your eyes you said,
"I'll remember them forever"
We got used to always seeing, the setting sun coloring the rows of cherry blossom trees
And as we begin to walk towards the future,
we'll hold each and every one of these memories in our hearts
Until you reach the place of the dreams you've envisioned
Don't ever give up
You are flowers that have yet to be named,
but I want you to grow stronger and never give up no matter what

Someday, when the time comes
to look back down the path you've walked
I want you to have grown stronger and have not given up,
like the flowers that bloom in the field
One of these days,
we'll meet here again, so until that day...
I want you to grow strong and never give up,
like the flowers that bloom in the field
I want you to grow strong and never give up,
I want you to flourish... (1)

*Notes: (1) sakitai... literally, it means "i want you to bloom" but he is saying it to the effect of, "i want you to grow and flourish" because he wants them to grow stronger as they grow up.

P/S: i got this translations from gackt's fan website. not my own materials but it help me to understand this song better and i also wanted you to. the singer, Gackt is a japanese and you may find out more about him from Wikipedia, and Virtual Japan.

i love love love this song very much. simply because it is beautiful, both in melodies and lyrics. it also has a wonderful meaning especially about our good old school days.

Gackt, his singing just pierce into my hearts. i can never get enough of him. he has so much talents and good, cool personality. being a perfectionists and a very competitive person, you can always expect to get the best performances from him. he like to push himself to the limits. he can play various instruments, and acts too.

some people said he looks like a woman, which is not uncommon for jrock and jpop artists. but, i always see gackt as a lone wolf, cool beautiful mysterious lonely successful male artist. afterwards, from japan shows in youtube, i begin to see him more as an approachable person, a shy, humble, delicate, strong, funny, kind hearted, reserved, still lonely, and ... i just run out of words to describe him. haih... maybe the term 'hana yori dango' suits him better.

he is a big fan of martial arts, having trained in judo, karate, kick boxing and others. he is a little under 6 feet tall, with lean body, and has the bad habit of smoking. gackt prefers night to day, hates sweets, and prefers candle light over electric. it is said that the only lights on in his home are always candles.

he also had a pet dog and a cat. this one here is belle, his pet dog that deceased some time ago.

however, being a typical female fan, i prefer to see different sides (or the softer side) of this lone wolf. that is why i always search for domoto kyoudai, heyX3 and utaban shows in youtube to watch gackt interviews and talks. he is a non-believer in marriage. haha... why am i not surprised. i believe he is a straight guy despite all those fan-based rumours.

ok, moving to his discographies, so far, i like the songs no ni saku hana no you ni, kono dare mo inai heya de, last song, love letter, orenji no taiyou, arittake no ai de, redemption, kimi ni aitakute, seven, todokanai, tea cup, illness illusion, black stone, white eyes, and soleil. there are still more of his songs, but i am not able to get to all of them yet. as time goes by, i will listen to all of them. besides, i think him leaving malice mizer in 1998 and went solo was a wise step. he has his own band now called GacktJOB. gackt begin to open up more when he is doing solo.

why do i like gackt so much?
he is talented, mostly as a singer, also as an entertainer.
hard worker,
ambitious,
true to himself,
his deep voice,
his belief in himself,
successful yet humble,
him being a martial artists,
his coolness,
unintended jokes,
sometimes make cute innocent remarks,
he can be funny at times.

i just love Gackt. there is much more to say about him but, this is as much as i could think of to say about him right now. i will keep on rooting for gackt.

P/S.S: photos are taken widely from internet, no violation of copyright or originality are ever intended. this post is dedicated to gackt fans such as myself.

爱的路上只有我和你

Ai De Lu Shang Zhi You Wo He Ni

Artist: Richie Ren

Bu zhi dao shen me shi hou kai shi xi huan zhe li
Mei ke ye li dou hui lai zhe li kan ni
Ni chang de zhe me mei li jiao wo bu neng bu kan ni
Kan bu dao ni wo jiu mi shi le zi ji

Hao xiang qian ni de shou zou guo feng feng yu yu
You shen me kun nan wo dou pei zhe ni
Zhi dao tian chang di jiu, zhi dao tian huang di lao
Ai de lu shang zhi you wo he ni

Bu zhi dao shen me shi hou kai shi xi huan zhe li
Mei ke ye li dou hui lai zhe li kan ni
Ni chang de zhe me mei li jiao wo bu neng bu kan ni
Kan bu dao ni wo jiu mi shi le zi ji

You shi hou ni hen tiao pi zong shi rang wo zhao ji
Yi ke xin zong shi wei ni diao bu ting
Zhi you yi bi shang yan jing, zong you qian bai wan ke ni
Ni de ying zi, zhuang man wo de nao huai li

Bu neng guo bu xiang ni, ye bu neng guo wang ji ni
Zhong shi zai meng li yi zhi kan dao ni
Duo xiang dui ni shuo ju, wo shi zhen de ai ni
Dui mo de xin bu yao zai huai yi

Hao xiang qian ni de shou zou guo feng feng yu yu
You shen me kun nan wo dou pei zhe ni
Zhi dao tian chang di jiu, zhi dao tian huang di lao
Ai de lu shang zhi you wo he ni

Hao xiang qian ni de shou zou guo feng feng yu yu
You shen me kun nan wo dou pei zhe ni
Zhi dao tian chang di jiu, zhi dao tian huang di lao
Ai de lu shang zhi you wo he ni

*P/S: this is my favourite love song ever. it really sang out how i felt about my first crush [:P]
really bring back the good memories. whenever i feel down, it always lift me up. haha...
however, Wang Lee Hom is still my all time favourite singers alive. ^O^