slow

i know that i always took a long time to post something new. it is not that i am lazy or out of idea, but i prefer to blog only when something big or important happened and i could write good remarks on it. a pretty lame excuse, right? haha...

viewing my friendster photos just now, under "my love love attack" album, i realize that they are all asian guys with japanese style long hair (except Lee Hom Wang). so, i was thinking maybe my viewers, if there are any, would have misunderstood that i like pretty face, heavily dressed and all make up guys. well, that is not true.

what i am looking for in a man is not much different from some typical ladies. ( i do want and hope to become ladylike.) in my opinion, a man is most attractive when they are in their 30's. not to say that i only pursue older guys, but it is their maturity and... maybe the term "gentleman" like those posses by Daniel Henney can best explain what i meant to say.



okay, let me elaborate further so you may understand me better. take Daniel for an example, he is now in his 20's ( born 28th of November 1979), well late 20's, but he has a maturity, self assurance, dignity, and life motivation that are unbreakable. he is confident not arrogant, self-assured not selfish, strong yet sensitive, set his own moves rather than just following the crowd, successful yet humble, and he is independent. or at least, that is how i look at him. he is a man, not a boy.



so, i like mentally matured, physically masculine and emotionally dependable kind of man. erm... is it too much? when i say emotionally dependable, i did not mean that a man must never cry. i do not want to be with a robot for the rest of my life. however, i must stress that i am not looking for mr. perfect or mr. ideal, but only someone who is just perfect for me. twisted words, huh?

well, i have this kind of vision that my guy would just be simple. comfortable in t-shirt and jeans or shorts while still look smart in suits. the one who make me at ease when i am just moderately dress and feel appreciated when i am dressing up. the one to lift me up when i fall, and to be sincerely happy when i succeed. the one who always encourage not cruelly criticize. the one to pin point my mistakes with cares and love.

is unconditional love merely a myth? and do happily ever after only live inside fairy tales? haha... i almost lost faith in true love. the world is witnessing wedding unions as much as divorces everyday. but, when looking at old couples holding hands, walking side by side, even if with canes and having happy conversations together, i want to believe in love again. i want to give it a chance. i do not want to surrender without a fair fight. therefore, i also want you to be wise in love and wish you all the best. may cupids and God always be with you. bless and love. take care.

野に咲く花のように

no ni saku hana no you ni

by: Gackt M. Sawasdee Camui

daremo inai GURAUNDO no namae kizanda sakura no shita
itsuka kimi to mou ichido
koko ni kuru koto wo yakusoku shiyou
CHAIMU no hibiku koutei no
katasumi ni saku hana no you ni
yasashiku waratte kureta kimi dake ni tsutaetai
tada "arigatou" to...
bokutachi wa itsu no hi ni ka
mata kono basho de deau sono hi made
no ni saita hana no you ni
kesshite makezu ni tsuyoku sakitai

kayoi nareta kono michi mo
kyoushitsu kara mieru keshiki mo

"itsumademo wasurenai yo"

to namida ukabeta, kimi no egao mo
itsumo minareta yuugure ga sakura namiki wo somete yuku
bokutachi wa sorezore no omoide wo
mune ni daite aruki hajimeru
itsuka mita yume no basho e tadori tsuku made
akiramenaide
mada na mo nai hana dakeredo
kesshite makezu ni tsuyoku sakitai

itsu no hi ka aruite kita michi wo
furikaeru toki ga kuru made
no ni saita hana no you ni
kesshite makezu ni tsuyoku sakitai
bokutachi wa itsu no hi ni ka
mata kono basho de deau sono hi made
no ni saita hana no you ni
kesshite makezu ni tsuyoku sakitai
kesshite makezu ni tsuyoku sakitai
sakitai...

translation:

like the flowers that bloom in the field

No one has engraved their name on the ground beneath the cherry tree
So let's make a promise to
come here together again someday and do that
Like the flowers that bloom in the corner of the schoolyard,
where the echoing of the school bell can be heard
I want to express to you, who gently smiled for me,
a simple "Thank you"
One of these days, we'll meet here again,
so until that day...
I want you to grow stronger and never-give-up,
like the flowers that bloom in the field

The road we got used to walking down,
and the scenery we saw from our classroom
With a smile upon your face and tears in your eyes you said,
"I'll remember them forever"
We got used to always seeing, the setting sun coloring the rows of cherry blossom trees
And as we begin to walk towards the future,
we'll hold each and every one of these memories in our hearts
Until you reach the place of the dreams you've envisioned
Don't ever give up
You are flowers that have yet to be named,
but I want you to grow stronger and never give up no matter what

Someday, when the time comes
to look back down the path you've walked
I want you to have grown stronger and have not given up,
like the flowers that bloom in the field
One of these days,
we'll meet here again, so until that day...
I want you to grow strong and never give up,
like the flowers that bloom in the field
I want you to grow strong and never give up,
I want you to flourish... (1)

*Notes: (1) sakitai... literally, it means "i want you to bloom" but he is saying it to the effect of, "i want you to grow and flourish" because he wants them to grow stronger as they grow up.

P/S: i got this translations from gackt's fan website. not my own materials but it help me to understand this song better and i also wanted you to. the singer, Gackt is a japanese and you may find out more about him from Wikipedia, and Virtual Japan.

i love love love this song very much. simply because it is beautiful, both in melodies and lyrics. it also has a wonderful meaning especially about our good old school days.

Gackt, his singing just pierce into my hearts. i can never get enough of him. he has so much talents and good, cool personality. being a perfectionists and a very competitive person, you can always expect to get the best performances from him. he like to push himself to the limits. he can play various instruments, and acts too.

some people said he looks like a woman, which is not uncommon for jrock and jpop artists. but, i always see gackt as a lone wolf, cool beautiful mysterious lonely successful male artist. afterwards, from japan shows in youtube, i begin to see him more as an approachable person, a shy, humble, delicate, strong, funny, kind hearted, reserved, still lonely, and ... i just run out of words to describe him. haih... maybe the term 'hana yori dango' suits him better.

he is a big fan of martial arts, having trained in judo, karate, kick boxing and others. he is a little under 6 feet tall, with lean body, and has the bad habit of smoking. gackt prefers night to day, hates sweets, and prefers candle light over electric. it is said that the only lights on in his home are always candles.

he also had a pet dog and a cat. this one here is belle, his pet dog that deceased some time ago.

however, being a typical female fan, i prefer to see different sides (or the softer side) of this lone wolf. that is why i always search for domoto kyoudai, heyX3 and utaban shows in youtube to watch gackt interviews and talks. he is a non-believer in marriage. haha... why am i not surprised. i believe he is a straight guy despite all those fan-based rumours.

ok, moving to his discographies, so far, i like the songs no ni saku hana no you ni, kono dare mo inai heya de, last song, love letter, orenji no taiyou, arittake no ai de, redemption, kimi ni aitakute, seven, todokanai, tea cup, illness illusion, black stone, white eyes, and soleil. there are still more of his songs, but i am not able to get to all of them yet. as time goes by, i will listen to all of them. besides, i think him leaving malice mizer in 1998 and went solo was a wise step. he has his own band now called GacktJOB. gackt begin to open up more when he is doing solo.

why do i like gackt so much?
he is talented, mostly as a singer, also as an entertainer.
hard worker,
ambitious,
true to himself,
his deep voice,
his belief in himself,
successful yet humble,
him being a martial artists,
his coolness,
unintended jokes,
sometimes make cute innocent remarks,
he can be funny at times.

i just love Gackt. there is much more to say about him but, this is as much as i could think of to say about him right now. i will keep on rooting for gackt.

P/S.S: photos are taken widely from internet, no violation of copyright or originality are ever intended. this post is dedicated to gackt fans such as myself.

Hyde @ Hideto Takarai ???

i was surfing for Lee Hom's latest news on the net a few days ago, and suddenly came across a movie entitled "Moon_Child" in which Lee Hom was one of the casts long time ago. so, i did further research and watched the movie in YouTube.

guess what, i came upon admiring Kei, a vampire played by Hyde (in white shirt). then, googled on Hyde, listen to his songs and browse for his photos. and right now, i am madly in love with him. hahaha... i know very well that i am already over 20 years of age and should have had enough with J-idol phenomenas, but still, i go ga-ga all over him. haiyoo...


going on, i look out for his biography but with only a few success. thanks to Wikipedia and his hard die fans, i got to learn a bit of something about him.




Hyde (Pronounced in Japanese: Hai-do, or in English as "Hide", born on January 29, 1969, in Wakayama, Japan) is the singer for the Japanese rock band L'Arc~en~Ciel.

Since Hyde keeps his personal information secret, much about him is either unknown or unofficial (including his real name, which is rumored to be Hideto Takarai, and his birth date). He is the only child in his family. His parents owned a pub with a karaoke box and were married very young.

He joined L'Arc~en~Ciel in 1991 after leaving another band called Jerusalem's Rod where he was the guitarist.In addition to being the lead singer and main lyricist of L'Arc~en~Ciel, Hyde has solo projects, as well as his own record label under Sony Japan called Haunted Records.

On December 25, 2000 Hyde married model Megumi Oishi. He had stated that he had always admired Oishi and that she has a beautiful face. Hyde was introduced to Oishi on Utaban after a performance of DIVE TO BLUE. They have one child, who was recently revealed by Oishi to be a boy. His name has not been released. i am speechless. but, good for him anyway. having a happy family and successful careers.

Hyde released his first solo album, Roentgen, on March 27, 2002. An overseas edition featuring English lyrics was released in July of the same year. After the expressive, artistic ballads of Roentgen, Hyde's next two singles, "Hello" and "Horizon," released June and November of 2003 respectively, returned to his rock roots.

His second solo album, 666, was released on December 3, 2003. It provided a dramatic contrast to Roentgen and the two albums became viewed as counterparts. Hyde's song "Shining Over You" from his 666 album was used as the commercial song for Namco's Baten Kaitos: Eternal Wings and the Lost Ocean.


In 2003, Hyde starred alongside Gackt in the Japanese film Moon Child. In a duet as part of the project, Hyde and Gackt sang "Orenji no taiyou". The song was also released on Gackt's fourth full-length album, Crescent.


In 2004, Hyde took on the role of the guitarist Adam in the movie Kagen no tsuki /下弦の月 (Last Quarter), a movie based on the popular manga by Ai Yazawa. The movie's theme song, "The Cape of Storms", came from Roentgen.

yup, he had only stared in two movies so far. both are sad stories.

After a three-year hiatus, L'Arc~en~Ciel astonished their fans with a series of seven concerts titled "Shibuya Seven Days" in June and July 2003. At the conclusion, they announced a new album, Smile, which was released in March, 2004.


In the summer of 2005, Hyde composed the music for the song "Glamorous Sky." The song was used in the movie Nana, another film based on a popular manga by Ai Yazawa. The song was sung by fellow Japanese artist Mika Nakashima and the lyrics were written by Ai Yazawa. In August, Hyde and his solo band performed the song on Music Station with Mika Nakashima, Hyde being on guitar. Starting in January 2006, Hyde's single "Season's Call" was used as the second opening theme to the anime show Blood+. This single was released on February 2, 2006. Hyde's album, Faith, was released on April 26th, 2006.

Faith was accompanied by a five-month tour with many locations in Japan, some exclusively open to members of his fanclub. After signing on with Tofu Records as a solo artist, a US debut concert was scheduled as part of the Faith tour, which was held at Slim's in San Francisco, California on July 5, 2006. Tickets for the event went on sale online at 1 p.m. EST on April 2, 2006 and sold out in an astonishing three minutes. The second round of sales was held April 9, also online, and also sold out quickly. Soon afterward, rumors began circulating in the fan community of a second concert, to be held at House of Blues in Anaheim, California, on July 2. The rumors remained unconfirmed for a week before the event was announced officially. Like the San Francisco venue, the second concert also sold out, as did two more US concerts (the Fillmore, San Francisco and House of Blues, Hollywood).

The overseas version of Faith was released on June 27, 2006 and included a bonus DVD featuring music videos for both "Countdown" and "Season's Call". In Faith, Hyde uses a Fender Mustang as his main guitar, this is known for Kurt Cobain influences to Hyde's career; contrary to 666 album version- Hyde uses Gretsch guitars. Hyde also made a brief appearance at the Tofu Records booth at Anime Expo 2006 in Anaheim, California on July 1 for a question and answer panel. Following the completion of the FAITH tour, a DVD of the concerts was announced and was released November 8th, 2006.

HYDE is currently back with L'Arc~en~Ciel which on 31st May 2007 released their first single in two years, Seventh Heaven.


2008, HYDEIST, Hyde's official website announced that Hyde would be having a live tour around certain parts of Japan, which included Sendai, Sapporo and Fukuoka, starting from 1st August to 25th October. The announcement sparked off rumours of Hyde releasing a new solo album, but that has yet to be confirmed.

so, he had launched 6 solo albums so far. i love the song evergreen, hello, countdown, a drop of colour, orenji no taiyou, angels's tale, shallow sleep, season's call, the cape of storms, hideaway, glamorous sky, and i could go on and on. you may listen to his tracks in my friendster profile.


and i noticed something about him, he looks like a different person in every pictures. sometime boyish, sometime charming, but always good looking. some people jokingly said hyde and gackt are actually vampires because they do not seems to age with time.


hyde is colour blind, so he could not become a cartoonist that he originally wanted. nevertheless, i still adore him. besides, he has a big appetite and always tries the local cuisine of the countries he travels to.

both are bishounen.

P/S: materials are extracted from internet, do not sue me. saya tiada duit...